Circles

You know what always messes things up? 

When we do things on our own. 

Yeah. that's right. 

You know when you try to do the right thing all the time but you're trying in your own strength instead of the Lord's and it turns out you can't because you're not nearly strong enough? 

This happens to me regularly. 

I'm like "Okay, Lord. I see what I'm doing wrong and what I need to change." and I change it. But I change it by myself. and that *never* lasts long. 

I get so tired and so worn out and so frustrated and I'm like "God, why is this so hard!?" 

and do you know what he always, ALWAYS says? 

"Love, just ask me to help. I can give you the grace you need. I can help you."

No matter HOW many times I mess up (and lemme tell you it's constantly.) That's always what he says!! Even if it's for the same stupid mistake. It blows my mind that He's willing to forgive me in the first place, but then the fact that he's so loving and so kind as to pour out His grace to help me do the right thing is so much that I can't even fathom His love for me.

wow.

You know, our God is TRULY an awesome God. It blows my mind how gentle and amazing and lovely He is.

*sigh*

I love you, Lord.

{P.S. I did not plan to write this post. O.o I was feeling more than horribly depressed sitting here trying to work and had SO much on my mind and I kinda figured I'd come write out a depressing post and never post it. Then this song came on my Spotify shuffle....And as I started writing God overwhelmed me with how great He is. How wonderful He is and how I just have to ask for His peace. I've really got my doubts about posting this.... I don't know why. I guess I just never publish the posts where I write out what's on my heart. Maybe I'm insecure? Anyways. I've decided I would. So here you have it. A few of my Late-night-would-rather-be-doing-anything-besides-work thoughts. I hope it's been a blessing to you in some way.}

{P.P.S. If there are weird clear little boxes under my posts, I have no clue what they are or what they're doing there and I apologize and I apparently can't make them go away. lol. :P}

In Love With Life...

How can I say thanks

For the things you have done for me-

Things so undeserved,

yet you give to prove your love for me?

The voices of a million angels

could not express my gratitude-

All that I am and ever hope to be,

I owe it all to thee.

To God be the glory,

To God be the glory,

To God be the glory

for thethings He has done.

With His blood He has saved me;

With his pow'r He has raised me;

To God be the glory

For the things he has done.

Just let me live my life;

Let it be pleasing, Lord, to thee.

And should I gain any praise,

Let it go to Calvary.

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My week:

Bowling//Yard cleaning//mowing//tramploline//Stargate//Filling Easter eggs//Helping Ty with her flower beds//bowling again//more yard work//church//Singing practice with my older siblings//baking//Pizza//Reading//clothes shopping//book shopping//Checking Totsy for my order over and over again//Chatting with friends//Cocolate Frosties//laughing//Self portraits//A new make-up style//Dairy Queen with friends//fingernail polish//mmmm...//Tennis//waiting for kittens//babysitting//approaching thunderstorm//Michael Buble//avoiding Algebra//distant lightning//loving life....

xoxox

Happy Easter and Luvz!!!!!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 

~RinskiiJoy

Five Years. a kinda silly post...

Five years doesn't sound like very far from now. 

There's an ant on the screen. That has absolutely nothing to do with what this post was gonna be but it stole all of my attention there for a sec. I Shall name him Jim. I don't know anybody named Jim. Now I do. :D 

Back to what I was saying. Five years doesn't seem like very much time. 

In five years, I will be 22. 

I will probably have a husband and maybe even children! 

No, I don't have a boyfriend. Heck, I don't even know a guy right now that I am interested in in that way. :) lol

I'm just saying, that  in five years a lot can happen. 

My youngest brother will be 9 years old. My oldest brother will be 32. (old fart. ;) lol) 

I could have a lot more nieces and nephews and maybe even a few new sisters-in-law. 

(uh-oh....I think mum just killed Jim. May he rest in peace. <3) 

In Five years, so much will be different! It is insane to think about! It's terribly exciting. ^_^

I'm so glad that we don't know how our lives are going to turn out. Aren't you? If we did, don't you think that we would always be trying so hard to change it, or keep it the same that we would ruin it? By not knowing, we can just live. All we have to do is trust that God knows best and do our best to obey Him and seek his will. :) I love life. I am so thankful that God chose for me to exist. Chose to put me right here. Right in this family, in this mobile home, on top of our rocky hill. <3 

I can't wait to see what Five years will bring my way. ^_^ 

xoxo

~RinksiiJoy

Check. This. Out!!!!! This is so amazing! It is a fantastic reminder of the greatness and amazing majesty of our God! 

http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/1849169

My sister lent us the DVD And I watched that today and I could watch it over and over! It gives me goose bumps. <3 My favorite quote from Louie is "There is a cross in history where the Star-Breather became the Sin Bearer. Where the Universe Maker became Mankinds Salvation." Isn't that beautiful?
I really hope you watch that video. It is long, But It's worth it. <3

On another note, I am eating a pecan/cranberry pancake for dinner. Yuuuuummm.....Not a box or mix pancake either. My mom's homemade from scratch whole-wheat pancakes. I am not usually a fan, but when they are loaded up with delicious goodies and topped with powdered sugar and cinnamon, They are absolutely lovely. ^_^
You know what I love? Warm days in January. It was so warm out today. It was amazing. Me and Ethan were on the tire swing for about 30 minutes while he told me all about Bears and squirrels eating acorns and burrying them in the woods. And he was sure that bears lived across the fence in the neighbors woods. When I told him about bears hibernating all through winter he was kind of confused but I think he loved the idea of curling up in a cave or den with a leaf blanket. lol. <3 He's a doll.
Also, -->This<-- Is what I wanna do.
I better go. Dad is really wanting the computer. :D lol. <3 I hope you can watch that video! It really is amazing. <3
LuvzUAll!!!!
~RinskiiJoy

P.S. I almost didn't post this because I look so dang stupid in it. But maybe I could stand to be a little less self-consious. ;) <3 This is me and TabbyCat being ninjas on the trampoline. :D <3 I hope you get a laugh outta this ridiculous picture!! xD

Something I love...

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I have started a blog post 3 times and erased it every time....I am at a loss at what to blog about! lol. I hate feeling like I have the most boring retarded blog on the planet so when I feel like no one will care what I write I would just rather not try to make it interesting! :P Sorry.

So, My bestie just reccomended "just writing about something I love"...

I love a lot of things. First of all, My Savior! I love Him for coming from Heaven to be born in a dirty stall. I love Him for living His life teaching and serving others. And I love Him for dying on the cross and enduring scorn and contempt and beatings all beacause he loved me and wanted to make a way for me and all other sinners to get to heaven!! I love him for rising again on the 3rd day. And I love him for preparing a home for me in heaven where I will live eternally praising Him. I love Him for loving me. That is what I love the most.

Secondly, I love my family!! God has given me the most amazing family ever on the face of the planet! I have brothers and sisters and parents who all love the Lord and care about encouraging each other and teaching their children how to grow and learn and live for Christ! And on top of all that, they are a dang fun group of people.

Everywhere else I love way to much to post, but I will try to list a few,
I love my friends, I love, Summer, I love Snow, I love Springtime, I love butterflies, I love laughing, I love togetherness, I love flowers, I love Music, I love singing, I love church, I love deep brown eyes, I love sunshine, I love Colors, I love my bird, I love converse....I think I had better stop. :D lol. <3 <3 <3

God has given me a wonderful life to live. I get discontented when I think about all the things I wish I could do, and there are a lot of them, but when I actually stop and think about what God has done for me it all vanishes. I will always have dreams that I wish with almost all of me would come true, but I can leave that to God. If those things are His will for my life then they will come when He wants them to! If not, then I just need to trust that He knows what is best for me and to be content where He has me.

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Luvz and Merry Christmas 2 all of you!

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<3 RinskiiJoy <3 

Who Am I?

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

  I am Yours 

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I *LOVE* that song. I have it on my iPod sung by Hallal. They are SO good! Like, the best

Christian acapella  group ever! :D Anyways. I just wanted to share the lyrics. They are so lovely.

Have a great week everybody. :))))) 

Time....

 The other night I was curled up in my bed with the lamp on and my journal in my lap with really not much to write about. I love to write in my journal so I really wanted to but my mind was blank!! So I thought I'd just start writing and see where I ended up. :) I think it turned out pretty well! So I'm going to post what I wrote for all y'all to read if you want. ^_^

"March 2nd, 2011
Here we are in the 2nd day of March. I've wanted it to be my birthday since March 8th of last year!! :D I am VERY excited about turning 16, but you really get a handle on how time relly does never come back when you think, 'I only have 6 days left to be 15 and I'll never be 15 again.' Wow. Dad preached on 'Budgeting' your time tonight. We should find profitable spiritually edifying things to do with our time. We don't want to look back when we are older and think 'I really wish I had done more of 'blah' or less of 'blah' or had spent more time loving my family and serving the Lord jut then instead of being in such a hurry to grow up.' I know I don't want to feel that way about my life! My prayer for this coming 16th year of my life is that God will help me focus more on right now and how I can serve Him and others."

And that is where I ended up. :) I'm not a super good writer and It's not super deep, but I hope you enjoyed it anyways. :D
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LOLOL!!! I LOVE my life!! I was sitting here writing all that and heard SOMETHING buzzing! I was sure it was a radio that someone had left on and it was REALLY getting on my nerves so I got up to look around for it. Turns out it was the Pump Alarm on the outside of the house. Dad says: "Dan, go reset it" mom: "shouldn't you figure out what the problem is?" Dean: " I don't know how!" Dad: "you push the little button on it!" Mom: "shouldn't you figure out what the problem is?!" Dad: "*silent*.......Yeah. I guess I probably should..." HAHAHA!!!! That cracked me up. :D AND there is a little peek into the Crazy and Insanely random life of RinskiiJoy!! :D Have a great weekend all!!!